Day 22

Have you ever made someone so angry that she cried for 2 hours? Today, that is exactly what I did. I didn't mean to make her mad. It was all because of a cell phone at school. I couldn't leave the van full of students to go get her phone from the principal--that's when the crying started. The crying ended two hours later after 45 minutes of drawing pictures of a cell phone on a marker board and writing the word phone a few hundred times. I kept thinking, "Yes, I know you are upset and I know you are mad at me, but is that really helping at all?"

When I sat down at the end of the day to think about what I would write about in my Surprise Me blog, this was brought back to my mind. There are times when things are not going my way and I want things to go the way I want them. It's usually the little things that bring on this frustration. There is crying involved and writing in journals. I never say that I am mad at God, but I am sometimes. Now, I just get this image in my head of God saying, "Yes, I know you are upset and I know you are mad at me, but is that really helping at all?" The thing about God is that even when I am being stubborn and angry, he is there waiting for me stop and realize he has this amazing plan that probably won't go my way...but it will go the right way.